At 4:30 the director called telling me he had a fever and needed to be picked up. I left work, making arrangements to be out the next day (fever means you're out for 24 hours after fevers gone). I don't take many sick days, so I was looking forward to a day off. I got a bit of work done on my WIP and also spent time with my son.
By Wednesday night I had a sore throat and headache. I knew when I woke up Thursday morning with a fever I had strep (I've had strep almost once a year since I can remember, I just know). I went to the Drs and they confirmed it, saying I had to be out of work for two days. I let work know, filled my Rx and got some supplies, then headed home. I didn't feel too bad at this point, but it all went down from there.
Fever rose (highest 102.7), throat became more swollen, and all I wanted to do was sleep. I couldn't even open my lap top (this is the first time since Wednesday that I've opened it). I couldn't read either. All I did was lay around while watching a show on Netflix. And finally today I feel human again. No fever, throat isn't as tender (aside from cough) and I feel rested. Now I'm sure you're wondering what the reason for this post is. I'll explain.
Somewhere around the third time my temp rose, I started to think "I'm done." I'm done with my WIP. Done with writing, blogging, trying to get into running, all of it. I'm tired of getting up extra early to exercise and write. I'm tired of my MC's taking over my brain. I'm tired of wondering when I can fit in a run. It's too much with a family (husband works long hours and son is almost 4, into everything) and working a full time job.
Luckily the fever broke and I woke up this morning with a different outlook. I don't want to give up, that was the sickness talking. My weak state of mind playing tricks. It's a good thing I don't make hasty decisions (and left my lap top alone while sick).
But the truth is we all have these moments. Days where the world seems to fall in on us and we can't breathe. Although it's been a rough one, these sick days have helped. I took a break from writing, blogging, twitter, all of it and am now refreshed and ready to go. And I can't wait to get back to it all. But only after finishing a read through for my newest crit partner who's been so understanding.